My Meditation Journey
*for a brief definition of meditation and its benefits, read more here.
I began meditating in 2009 while attending a retreat on contemplative practices and religious environmental activism at The Garrison Institute in New York. I first turned to meditation after the death of my brother, Jamel Clay, who died as a result of complications after a brain aneurysm. My brother’s death was absolutely devastating to me. In the months that followed I had terrible bouts of insomnia. I turned to everything, exercise, sleep medicine, and those definitely helped, however it wasn’t until I tried meditation that I was able to return to a regular sleep schedule.
After discovering the benefits of meditation, I turned to meditation for a different reason, to heal from my past experiences of attempted sexual assault by a teacher (who was also a Baptist pastor) in grade school and a brutal rape during my first year of college. When I turned to meditation to heal from my experience of surviving rape, I had a different approach. I knew in order to recover from the negative impact that sexual violence had on my body, mind and Spirit, I first needed to address the trauma.
This led me to studying how trauma-sensitive meditation could help. Next, I put together a meditation routine by blending trauma-informed techniques, breathing, mindfulness, and visualization methods. This became the foundation of what I use in my guided meditation on Sexual Healing.