My Meditation Journey
*for a brief definition of meditation and its benefits, read more here.

I began meditating in 2009 while attending a retreat on contemplative practices and religious environmental activism at The Garrison Institute in New York. I first turned to meditation after the death of my brother, Jamel Clay, who died as a result of complications after a brain aneurysm. My brother’s death was absolutely devastating to me. In the months that followed I had terrible bouts of insomnia. I turned to everything, exercise, sleep medicine, and those definitely helped, however it wasn’t until I tried meditation that I was able to return to a regular sleep schedule.

After discovering the benefits of meditation, I turned to meditation for a different reason, to heal from my past experiences of attempted sexual assault by a teacher (who was also a Baptist pastor) in grade school and a brutal rape during my first year of college. When I turned to meditation to heal from my experience of surviving rape, I had a different approach. I knew in order to recover from the negative impact that sexual violence had on my body, mind and Spirit, I first needed to address the trauma.

This led me to studying how trauma-sensitive meditation could help. Next, I put together a meditation routine by blending trauma-informed techniques, breathing, mindfulness, and visualization methods. This became the foundation of what I use in my guided meditation on Sexual Healing.

After creating my guided meditation on healing from sexual violence, I realized that there were other areas of trauma and social stigma that could be interrupted by adapting and developing guided meditations for these situations. I also saw that by making sure that the meditations were culturally relevant, they could potentially reach people who really need help with reducing their stress levels, but may not have tried meditation before or may not be physically or financially be able to take full yoga training.